suddenly

I've been ok most of today.. more positive than negative. But in the afternoon I felt suddenly empty and so lonely and sad... so I did the sensible thing and slept, because for all I knew, the feeling was nothing but a result of sleep deprivation. But when I woke, I was still not quite ok. And just now it has gotten worse. For no real reason, and really at the base of it I feel there might lie inadequacy, and that comes from a need for recognition or somesuch thing. I wish I could just get people away from my life, sometimes. The presence of people, even around me is so irritating sometimes. I just need some people, and I wish the others would melt away or something when they needn't be. I used to be better at phasing them out earlier. With this whole wake-up-and-be-sociable thing, all that has gone for a toss. Blah.